Last weekend, I was in Batangas 0n our summer trip-slash-team building with my officemates. I had a great time. But sadly, my m0st vivid mem0ry w0uld be me, staring in vast ocean – thinking afar. The realizati0n came t0 me in the weirdest 0f m0ments. While every0ne was swimming and enjoying, I was reliving and reliving our moments together or how different it wud be if only he’s with me. I needed help - bad. I kn0w, I sh0uld kick myself f0r still pining f0r him. But there's n0thing I can d0 ab0ut it. I kn0w I'm being stupid, but I l0ve him. I can't help that. Y0u can't ch00se wh0 t0 l0ve and wh0 n0t t0 l0ve. It just s0 happened that I'm in l0ve with a pers0n I can never be with. He will never find a place f0r me after what I did to him. After my stupidity.S0 I sit here in my misery. Every day I d0 things, I try t0 make pe0ple happy, I stay as n0rmal as can be. I w0rk hard, I have fun, I g0 0ut. A l0t 0f things have been happening but I cann0t deny the fact that there is 0ne c0nstant - the pain that never seems t0 g0 away. I have m0ments 0f denial, when I actually still c0nvince myself that I have accepted the facts. But the little things - even as simple as drinking - remind me s0 much 0f him and h0w g00d it was when we were t0gether. I guess I'll never have that again.